I'm standing here, exposed and raw
My heart is beating out of my chest
I'm reaching out, searching for a sign
That you can see the hurt inside my mind

Don't underestimate the pain I feel
I need you to understand me
The darkness and the light within me

I want you to break me open
And see the secrets that I hide
I want to feel your touch

Like a Minesweeper game
Full of hidden bombs and mines
Navigate the terrain
Trying to uncover what's inside

I want you to sweep me clean
And see the secrets that I hide
I want to feel your touch
Like a bomb defused inside

I want you to break me open
And see the secrets that I hide
I want to feel your touch

Lyrics:

Can't seem to shake this feeling
Its been here all along
A heavy weight upon my chest
a never ending song

I try to push it down inside
But it's always there to find
A constant reminder of pain that's left behind

(Pain that's left behind)

I'm the last man in the earth
A lonely existence to bear
I find a silent world around me
No one is left to share
the memories of what used to be
And it haunts my every step
I search for sign of life but I only find more emptiness

And I try to push it down inside
But it's always there to find
A constant reminder of pain that's left behind

(Pain that's left behind)

Using my latest setup involving Octatrack, Bitwig and Max 8. I basically mapped a bunch of modulators in Bitwig in a similar fashion to scenes in Octatrack, and I am using the scene controls in Octatrack to control Bitwig via a patch I created in Max 8. Fun stuff. Basically thats what gives it the kind of live / kind of programmed kind of sound I guess? I'm planning on improving this system to where I can hopefully do a whole live set with it, maybe possibly with a little live looping over top. One can dream.

So I've had an Octatrack since 2012, an APC40 since 2010 and I rarely use them. Well tonight I used them for a hybrid hardware/sofware jam. So its not my usual fare but it was pretty fun. Here's how it works:

Octatrack for midi sequencing
APC40 faders mapped to macros in Bitwig
All sounds are built-in bitwig instruments/effects
Only 3 tracks - Drums, Bass, Lead

Basically I wanted to simulate the scenes in Octatrack, but do it in a way that could have the perfect recall of a DAW, so I used the macros in bitwig to modulate various parameters across all 3 tracks. Each fader represents a 'scene' in the elektron sense of it.

It was a totally different workflow than anything I've ever done, and since it was all midi, everything is perfectly recorded unlike a usual hardware jam where it's all audio. The downside is that I spent most of the time mapping the modulators in Bitwig and much less time actually using the Octatrack.

You haunt me like a ghost, I can't shake you off
Your voice echoes in my mind, my heart feels so lost
I see you in every shadow, every locker room we shared
I'm trying to move on, but you're holding me back, I'm scared

Just a memory, fading out
Those times in the locker room

Can you feel me calling out?
In the echoes of your heart
Just a memory, fading out
But I can't seem (to restart)

Can you feel me calling out?
In the echoes of your heart
Just a memory, fading out
But I can't seem (to restart)

Can you feel me calling out?
Can you feel me calling out?
Can you feel me calling out?
Can you feel me calling out?

[apologies for Another super quiet bounce from me since I switched DAW's and dont know wtf i am doing in bitwig yet and idk how to re-upload a fixed version]

Verse 1:

The neon lights are burning bright

But no one's here to see them shine

The open sign is flickering

But the store's closed for the last time

Chorus:

It's the end of an era

The end of a dream

The open sign is fading

But the memories still gleam

The graveyard is a lonely place.

The graveyard is a lonely place.

How many hearts have been broken?

How many dreams have died?

Note: 3rd time I accidentally chopped off the last few seconds of my track... THIS IS A NUKAGE PRODUCTION DESPITE NOT HAVING A PRODUCER TAG KTHX

Lyrics:

It's been a million years since we last saw the sun

We're still standing here

We're the last ones left



I can't say I know what you are but you're important

So big and imposing, but you are still dormant



and I know that you stand

As a testament to hope and resilience



Remind us all that we can overcome

Anything at all

Remind us all that we cannot be stopped

And we stand tall



It's been a million years since we last saw the sun

We're still standing here

We're the last ones left

I can't say I know what you are but you're important

So big and imposing, but you are... A MONOLITH!!!!



Remind us all that we can overcome

Anything at all

Remind us all that we cannot be stopped

And we stand tall

Vocal borrowed from Without Me by Dayseeker
Second compo I bounced incorrectly in the past few weeks, proof that I do not listen to the arrangements until I bounce and upload them. there's a weird drum track in there (before first drop) that should been muted

Been lookin for you in every single place
Been lookin for you in every single face
But you're like a needle
That I can't find

But you're like a needle
That I can't find

I looked high and low
But you're not there

Maybe I'll go home
And say its not fair

That now I'm lost
I'm never gonna be found
Now I'm lost...

But you're like a needle
That I can't find
But you're like a needle
That I can't find

This has been a NUKAGE production.

Ending cut off including my producer tag :( I'm sure any snarky a-holes in the chat will point out its absence :D

I can't keep my eyes open
I can't keep my mind from racing

I just want to drift away
And dream of better days

And I just wanna drift away
Not think of all the fuckin nights
and all the fuckin fights

And I just wanna drift away
The racing of my fuckin mind
All the fuckin time

When I'm falling asleep with you
I only fall asleep with you
And dream of better days
When I'm lying next to you
?????????

Worries of my day
Wanna drift away
Worries of my life
Wanna grab a knife

Can't keep my eyes open
Can't kee my mind from racing

My mind is spinning and I'm feeling tired
I just want to dream of better days

As the plane starts to descend

The panic sets in

The screams the echo the cabin

As the plane starts going down

I can feel it all around me

The fear is in the air

I'm trapped in this nightmare

Falling through the air

People dying all around me

There's blood everywhere

And I all I can do is pray because

Life isn't fair

And comes to a short end



I can feel it coming

The pressure is mounting

I know that it's time To let go



no easy answer

we're an enigma

I'm left here wondering

Where to go



Maybe one day we'll understand

Maybe one day we'll see the light

maybe we'll create solutions to our problems



as the ground gives way

I'm falling I'm falling

the world comes tumbling down

I'm falling I'm falling

You're in a place

that i can't comprehend

Can't see your face 

So far away, that I can't understand

Two beings lost

We were together yet alone

lost, so far away

It chilled us to the bone

can't keep me controlled

im am free

Won't do what I'm told

I live my life

Don't hold back, no rules

Just let me go

I'm can do what I want to  do

You can have the world, and you can have the sea

But I don't want them, just leave me be

I can see the people through the glass
And everything you've built is coming detached
But it's growing and it growing
they're not going away

It's like looking through a cracked mirror
on judgement day

We drive, We drive, The windshield is breaking apart
we lose control and we're going off the cliff tonight

I can't believe 

How much that we've 

Crossed paths, and I --

I realize you are the key to life   

You help me make sense of it all

I used to think that you were a tool  

you have my secrets and they wont escape

You help me make sense of it all

I won't forget you when you fall

You are the key

To my success

But you're filled 

With my regrets

But I always come back

You're always so exact

Can't take the heat
Everyone's Gonna melt away
All I can do is lay
In the summer heat

I try to stay cool
And make it through
as the sun beats down
on me

the the the sunlight
the the the sunlight
the the the sunlight

All I can feel
all the dirty sweat rushing down my brow
my skin is burning red now

I try to stay cool
And make it through
as the sun beats down
on me

.

Traveling somewhere
Could be anywhere
There′s a coldness in the air
But I don't care
We drift deeper
Life goes on
We drift deeper
Into the sound

We drift deeper into the song
Life goes on
A red carpet rolls along
Feeling strong
So bring it on, so bring it on
So bring it on, so bring it on

We drove all night to find the place that was our own

And when we couldnt find a place to keep that secret

It wasn't a big deal at all

I won't be held hostage from this feeling of regret

we won't be held in this place in doubt

and we come, we're coming for you

Lyrics:

Snee Key Speck You Lum (Sneaky Speculum)

Snee Key Speck You Lum (Sneaky Speculum)

Snee Key Speck You Lum (Sneaky Speculum)

Snee Key Speck You Lum (Sneaky Speculum)

A- Anything you'd like, it can't hear you.

ALSO: David John and I have a new tune out: https://nukage.bandcamp.com/album/save-you (if sunny can do shameless promo then so can we)

Theme: Pretty Glass

Been trying to create these song routines that I can play 'mpc style' on drum pads and this was kind of an experiment in doing that, plus obviously trying to incorporate my theme. So I typed 'glass song' into youtube and sampled the song that came up first.

Blade wielding psychos came to my town

I told them to leave but they wouldn't leave

Until some other guy with a sword

Came and chopped them in half

Blood gushing out everywhere

I don't think I was prepared

Covering my face from his guts that were displaced

All over the ground

Eh... it's a long story. I made this tune on a stock version of ableton with a stock version of spire and nothing else because that's all I had on my only working laptop.. In about 30 minutes. Because I couldn't find my laptop charger and that's how long my battery lasted.

But it's all about the journey, not the destination, right my mates?

Lyrics:

Verse:

Blocking blasts, wooden shields

Tables, chairs all the things you

build with your hands

And I take it all and I take it all

Trees cut down

all the things that make you frown

when we couldn't find our own

way to be in this place

Chorus:

I know I made a promise

To the next of kin

He destroyed that building even when we were within

I know I made a choice

To bear it all and grin

He destroyed that building even when we were within 

Location: Hyrule (or is it?)

Not a usual compo for me, but I wanted to practice using my new-and-improved live looping setup and record some bad lyrics, so here you go. I also had to fix my max for live patch during the hour because it was doing weird stuff. Not entirely sure if this is a nukage production or not.

Making of this was streamed here:

https://www.twitch.tv/nukageofficial

Theme was: Fear of Fear 

Lyrics:

We met as travelers, following the only path we knew 

The forces rising kept us from the roads we knew were  true  

Raise your eyes to the sky, stars lead us to the land where we say goodbye 

Raise your eyes to the sky, stars lead us to the land where we say goodbye

fyi: Came late so I got a random phrase, which may or may not rhyme with the title

tried to make a hardwave track!  also streamed at twitch.tv/nukageofficial so check the replay 

you don't have will to fight your fights

so we end up having another  sleepless night

 

retreating into yourself doesn't stop the pain 

repeating all the pictures doesn't stop your shame 

 

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling the waves crashing down

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling like you're gonna drown 

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling the waves crashing down

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling like you're gonna drown 

 

retreating into yourself doesn't stop the pain 

repeating all the pictures doesn't stop your shame 

 

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling the waves crashing down

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling like you're gonna drown 

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling the waves crashing down

pain killler, it won't, it won't stop you from feeling like you're gonna drown 

Lyrics:

You're so quiet, why don't you speak your mind

I can hear the crickets, and it's not just in my mind

You never say what you mean anymore

They say I gotta cut you out, and that I gotta lock the door

You're gonna find out what it's like to be on your own 

To be all alone, all alone

You're gonna find out what it's like to be on your own 

All all alone, all alone

Lyrics: We Are the Moose

It's a half jellyfish half antelope.

alternative title - Mew Taters (fried potatoes shaped into little cats)

Traveling fast
Fast to the bottom
Traveling fast
Fast to the bottom
Keep the pace, do not waste
Efforts to lead us to safety

Will we find the hidden fruit
Buried deep below
Will this be for our freedom
When we all could know

It's a modular system
Danish toy engineers
Of success they're a victim
Keepin kids busy for years

Collection
Addition

When will it end
these sets keep on coming
i can't keep up
they're so damn expensive

Collection
Addition

http://www.nukage.net/2HTS202 for video of me recording this live

Let’s jump off the bridge together
never mind the weather
or that we said we’d never
betray each other

Let’s jump off the bridge together
never mind the weather
or that we said we’d never
Treat each other
like this
with a twist
you’re so pissed
you never been kissed
I made a list
you know the gist
all the reasons why
I’m pounding my fists