I’m done with riddles and borrowed skin
Done playing brave, then caving in
If truth hurts, let it bruise me blue
Better a mark than a pretty lie with you

Drums hit low as heart kicks fast
I choose the present, burn the past
Give me clarity, name it plain
No more fog in my brain


I want clarity, cut through the noise
Hold me steady when I lose my voice
If love’s a drug, I want the dosage right
No halos, no haze, just a clean white light

Your laugh was a spark in a wet alley
Warm hands shaking, pulse unsteady
Promises written in pencil lead
They smear when the weather gets inside my head

I learned your name from a window light
Street keeps breathing, counting my steps tonight
Every promise folded small in my coat
I keep my hands so I don’t choke

If truth is a wire, I walk it slow
Heart on a leash, letting go
If truth is a wire, I walk it slow
Heart on a leash, letting go

Shadows engulf the bleeding floor
A raging echo screams for more
Your eyes
They sear
A tempest's roar

I found you where the shore was burning blue,
Every wave carried something that you knew

impose
impose
the ocean takes control
impose impose
it devours my soul
no escape
the darkness flows
impose
impose
i'm adrift
don't you know

Fingers carve the night's edge bold
A flicker's dying
But the fury holds
Your silhouette
It cleaves the light

The air is molten
The tempo's wrath
A fractured mind
Unleashes its path

impose
impose
the ocean takes control
impose impose
it devours my soul
no escape
the darkness flows
impose
impose
i'm adrift
don't you know

Shadows engulf the bleeding floor
A raging echo screams for more
Your eyes
They sear
A tempest's roar

[Verse]
Splintered glass in the skyline, cuts in the air
Truth bent at the edges, I’m caught in the glare
Mirror shards in my veins, reflections I wear
Stepping through shadows, can’t find what’s fair

Thin cracks in the concrete, voices leaking out
Tightrope walking, whispers turn to shouts
Fingers trace the fractures, paths reroute
What’s real in the prism? Double twist, no doubt

[Chorus]
Refraction of light, bends my sight, distorts the fight
What’s straight feels wrong, what’s wrong feels right
Caught in the angles, drowning in the bright

[Verse]
Glass shards scatter, prism vision in the gutter
Splintered dreams glisten, but the glow's undercover
Chasin' shadows, moonwalk on cracked mirrors
Truth bent in angles, each corner breeds fear

Static in my headphones, heartbeats irregular
Time fractured, seconds drip like vinegar
Fingers on the edge, feel the razor slice the air
No reflection in the glass, just the weight of despair

[Chorus]
Refraction of light, bends my sight, distorts the fight
What’s straight feels wrong, what’s wrong feels right
Caught in the angles, drowning in the bright

Say a word till it melts like snow
Fingers trace where the echoes go
A name A sound It’s slipping Slow
Does it mean less the more I know?

Semantic satiation Spinning in my brain
Say it once Say it twice
Till it’s just a stain

A mirror shines but shows no face
Hollow echoes in a crowded space
The stars are singing but they’re out of tune
The sun’s a spotlight on an empty room

A candy shell with nothing sweet
The taste of sugar turns to concrete
A thousand colors None of them true
A stained-glass window with no view

Falling notes like paper rain
Beauty wrapped a-round the pain
Pretty sounds with empty core
A melody that you can’t ignore

Words are ghosts
Haunting Fading Plain
Semantic satiation Whisper it again
Letters crumble turn to dust

Chasing meaning feels unjust
Familiar shapes they lose their trust
say it loud and say it soft

[Verse 1]

River screams It pulls me in

Currents claw at fragile skin

Sunlight dies Shadows rise

Drifting further Endless skies

[Prechorus]

Vessel breaks I’m sinking down

Swallowed whole I won’t be found

Fight the tide But it won’t end

The river bends It won’t pretend

[Chorus]

Vessel sways My soul in tow

Through the rapids Let me go!

Tides of sorrow Tides of fight

Rowing toward eternal night



[Verse 2]

Paddles snap my hands are raw

Silent beasts beneath me gnaw

Frosted breath The air grows thin

The war outside becomes within



[Prechorus]

Vessel breaks I’m sinking down

Swallowed whole I won’t be found

Fight the tide But it won’t end

The river bends It won’t pretend



[Chorus]

Vessel sways My soul in tow

Through the rapids Let me go!

Tides of sorrow Tides of fight

Rowing toward eternal night

This was inspired by an old tune of mine, OHC 7-2-2020 Sly Comfort

[Verse]

Cold hands

Colder mind

Every move

So refined

You play me like a game

Like I’m blind

Your smile cuts deep

A blade unseen

Truth wrapped tight in a cruel machine

cuts so deep

A blade unseen

Truth wrapped tight in a cruel machine

[Chorus]

Numbers fall Like ashes in the sky, Cold equations

Whispering goodbye Fingers trace edge of the abyss

Metal against bone No escape from this

[Verse]

I'm holding on for dear life

But you won't hear me holding on for life

Every word from your mouth is another trigger

But you always come back like a f*ckin' stray

[Chorus]

Numbers fall Like ashes in the sky, Cold equations

Whispering goodbye Fingers trace edge of the abyss

Metal against bone No escape from this

[Outro]

How many times did you say

It was the last time

It was a sad sight

The way you pull me back in

Pull me back in

The screen flickers faint a ghost in the room
Shadows crawl where the light should bloom
I’m stuck on pause but the clock still ticks
Every second louder than the last glitch

Restart me erase me
Let the circuits betray me

Reboot my soul take me offline
Rewrite my heart make it divine
I’m a system failure, broken truth
Reboot me now I’ve got nothing to lose

Rewrite my heart make it divine
I’m a system failure I’m a broken truth

But I don't wanna be with you
I don't wanna reboot
don't wanna reboot

Reboot my soul take me offline
Rewrite my heart make it divine
I’m a system failure, broken truth
Reboot me now I’ve got nothing to lose

Static whispers in my ear
A thousand voices
None are clear
Circuits sparking in the dark
I can’t find where the end starts
Am I alive
Or just a phase

Reboot my soul take me offline
Rewrite my heart make it divine
I’m a system failure, broken truth
Reboot me now I’ve got nothing to lose

But I don't wanna be with you
I don't wanna reboot
don't wanna reboot

Decided to name it after one of my favorite foods

Empty plates and silver ghosts,
echoes in a hollow house.
Every prayer’s a poisoned toast,
I drink it down, I can’t get out.

I keep on feeding all my fire,
just to burn another night.

It’s feast or famine, nothing in between,
starving in the daylight, drowning in the dream.
You cut me open, I can’t taste a thing,
it’s feast or famine, every song I sing.

The hunger’s louder than the choir,
the silence sharper than the knife.
I keep on feeding all my fire,
just to prove that I am still alive.

Bless the table, curse the hand,
what I wanted turns to sand.

It’s feast or famine, nothing in between,
starving in the daylight, drowning in the dream.
You cut me open, I can’t taste a thing,
it’s feast or famine, every song I sing.

Concrete veins and a skyline pulse,
Running from echoes I can’t repulse.
Every ledge is a memory I leap,
Every fall is a secret I keep.

Fingers bleeding, palms are torn,
Chasing silence through--

I’m vaulting shadows, climbing scars,
Falling through alleys, chasing stars.
Parkour heart—never hits the floor,
Break what breaks me, then run some more.

Jump, run, vault — I can’t stay still.
Every rooftop’s just another hill.
Parkour heart, can’t cage this core,
Break what breaks me, I move, I soar.

I’m vaulting shadows, climbing scars,
Falling through alleys, chasing stars.
Parkour heart—never hits the floor,
Break what breaks me, then run some more.

Sky’s just another line
tryin’ to confine me.

From the alleys to the neon glow,
I’m a ghost in the city, you can’t control.
Parkour heart the thing I can’t hide.

Fingers bleeding, palms are torn,
Chasing silence --

Jump, run, vault — I can’t stay still.
Every rooftop’s just another kill.
Parkour heart, can’t cage this core,
Break what breaks me, I move, I soar.

Sky’s just another line

Wires in my chest, still tuned to your tone
Bar code heart, logged in but alone
Steam on the mirror where your name once bled
Now it just flickers in infrared

Ghost ride in a heart-shaped frame
Still pour two but you never came
I don’t heal, I just replay
Every word like a trap in the café

You ghosted, yeah, but I ghosted too
Who I was with you — now he gone too
This ain’t a sad song, it’s a time loop
Café’s the church where I lost my truth

Leather scent and a lithium taste
Your touch was code, now it's cyber-waste
No exit sign, no reset delay
I’m locked in the loop of that cursed café

You ghosted, yeah, but I ghosted too
Who I was with you — now he gone too
This ain’t a sad song, it’s a time loop
Café’s the church where I lost my truth

You said meet me at the café
Now I’m here like every gd day

Took a project file I had, took the chords that were in there, transposed them up a whole tone and changed the chord order, and the bpm, to make a new idea. Then I just took the heavier part and the lighter part and alternated triggering them while I sung some lyrics I had... then chopped it up into a shorter arrangement, added some vocal harmonies and transitions, and done.

[Verse 1]
You press your palm against the cold stone, map your pulse in echoes
Push deeper—let the shadows swallow your footsteps whole
Trace the fissures where your fears took root, feed them with exhaled embers
Lean into the hush; taste the way the darkness hums

[Pre-Chorus]
Sink into that hollow—feel your ribcage sync with dripping time
Shatter the thin veil of light; relinquish every borrowed rhyme

[Chorus]
Descend into the dark cave, become the tremor in its spine
Stoke your wounds into a torch, let the fractures outline

[Verse 2]
You drape your doubts like vines, let them coil around your ankles
Step past the ghosts of could-have-beens; ignite the distant angles

[Brdige]
Of hidden halls where hope still flickers—loot the dripped stalactites
Sip the bitterness of silence; swallow all your midnight rites

[Verse]
Push past the trembling ledge—embrace the weight beneath your spine
Rip the shadows into verses; let your blood become the sign
Descend into the dark cave, become the tremor in its spine
Stoke your wounds into a torch, let the fractures outline

[Chorus]
Descend into the dark cave, become the tremor in its spine
Stoke your wounds into a torch, let the fractures outline

The ground don’t hold me, it lets me fade
A fleeting spark in the mess I’ve made
No echo lingers, no proof I’m here
Just a hum of static atmosphere

I’m chasing steps that the tide’s gonna steal
Every mark I make don’t feel real
Shadows blur where the moonlight bends
I'm tracing ghosts of where I’ve been

Fading traces, lost in the glow
Carving my name where the cold winds blow
Every step’s a scream, but it don’t make a sound
I’m just a footprint sinking in the ground

Broken screens and a neon haze
I’m caught in loops of my yesterdays
The stars don’t care if I’m whole or torn
They burn the same as the day I was born

Fading traces, lost in the glow
Carving my name where the cold winds blow
Every step’s a scream, but it don’t make a sound
I’m just a footprint sinking in the ground

[Verse 1]
In the theatre of my blackened mind
Your echo grinds where the stars unwind
You’ve wired my soul to your flickering reign
Every spark’s a ghost, screaming your name

[Verse 2]
You own the void, every scream I bleed
A monopoly of my fractured need
I’m cogs and rust in your cold machine
You twist the knife, but I call it clean

[Chorus]
You’ve walled my dreams in a maze of design
Every exit’s locked, but I call you mine
You’ve claimed the stars, every spark I chase
Monopoly of my heart’s lost space


[Outro]
You bought my heart with a roll of the dice
Boardwalk dreams in your cold, sharp eyes
Every street I walk, you’ve claimed the rent
My soul’s a token, broke and spent

Shatter glass, your name’s a lie
Pixel scars in a bruised-up sky
I stole your face from a dead-end screen
You’re a ghost in my machine

We’re static claws in a feedback wail
Hiding hearts where the circuits fail
Every word’s a hack, every vow’s a glitch
Burning out in a digital ditch

In the blur, I still chase your shape
A borrowed face on a warped-out tape
Our aliases fray where the signals stall
Two lost souls where the airwaves fall

We’re moth-holed reels in a looping groan
Chasing ghosts where the air’s grown thin
Every touch is a smudge, every truth’s a veneer
Fading out where the edges smear

Borrowed faces, they twist in the rain
Carving your name on a windowpane
We’re warped cassettes in a basement’s chill
Scratching your voice where the tape stands still

In the blur, I still chase your shape
A borrowed face on a warped-out tape
Our aliases fray where the signals stall
Two lost souls where the airwaves fall

A keyhole carved in the dusk’s embrace,
Traces of you in the twilight’s face.
Through jagged edges, your shadow weaves,
A fleeting glow in the heart’s soft eaves.

My breath is a hymn, it hums through the dark,
Bound to the pull of your fading spark.

Keyhole hums, a wound in the sky,
Your echo lingers where my angels cry.
It claws my soul, it steals my air,
A holy ghost in the midnight glare.

Keyhole calls, it’s all I chase,
A shard of you in the void’s embrace.
of the whispers and frost,
Our dreams decay where the stars are lost.

The silence screams with a velvet ache,
Each note a relic of vows we break.
I’m stitched to your shade in the endless deep,
A fragile prayer I’m cursed to keep.

Keyhole hums, a wound in the sky,
Your echo lingers where my angels cry.
It claws my soul, it steals my air,
A holy ghost in the midnight glare.

Keyhole calls, it’s all I chase,
A shard of you in the void’s embrace.
The abyss is singing, it swallows my plea,
Your form dissolves in tide’s decree.

Keyhole hums, a wound in the sky,
Your echo lingers where my angels cry.
It claws my soul, it steals my air,
A holy ghost in the midnight glare.

Craters dim, they mend inside my skull,
Your echo flees where my heart’s stretched and full.

Each knot a stone, rewinding into the blaze,
I shun your touch, you’re a flame I’ve erased.

Convergent chains, they rust above the voids,
Every lock a balm that builds and joins.
I’m free to sink, where silence screams my shame,
A lasting ash, reborn in noisy claim.

Solar mud, it clots where oaths revive,
In ampitheatre’s hush, our lies collide.
Paths collide, their deserts push me high,
Your call ignites in sands I’ll always dry.

Each oath a rift, a lie we must complete.
My core’s a drought, it floods in finite cage,
A lasting ash, reborn in noisy claim.
Rip me loose, where atoms never meet

I’m a fraction in a pawnshop sky,
Divided by dreams that forgot how to fly.
My heart’s a calculator, jammed on repeat,
Adding up zeros where the ghosts used to meet.

We’re remainders, caught in the sum,
Divided by nothing, we come undone.
The equation’s a ghost, it’s a flicker, a hum,
We’re remainders, forever unwon.

I’m counting scars like they’re digits in a line,
Each one a number, carving out my time.
Subtraction’s cruel, it’s stealing from my chest,
Left with a fraction of the heart I had at best.

We’re remainders, caught in the sum,
Divided by nothing, we come undone.
The equation’s a ghost, it’s a flicker, a hum,
We’re remainders, forever unwon.

Throw away the broken dreams,
Trade them in for newer things
But I miss the way it stings
When I try to mend

Every update, every patch
Just another way to mask
All the questions I can’t ask
And the rules I can’t bend


Give me back the right of repair
Let me bleed, let me care
I don’t want a brand new heart
I want to fix these parts
Give me back the right of repair


If I can’t break, I can’t grow
If I can’t fix, I can’t know
What it means to be whole
What it means to be home
Let me in, let me try
I don’t want to say goodbye

I am a locked circuit,
A signal lost in the static,

I’m screaming at the screen,
But you just turn the volume down
I’m breaking at the seams,
But you just want a brand new sound

Plz excuse any clipping with the vocals, some plugin in my chain seems to be clipping it a little bit more than I wish, and I haven't had time to root out the issue...

LYRICS:

Moon in a birdbath, upside-down sky
Fingernails dipped in alibi
Breath curls like smoke from a wire
Left my name in a funeral fire

I climbed out of the soft collapse
Tongue full of thorns, heart full of glass
Chased the shadow with no end
Only to meet it again, again

I bloom in the dark, where color won’t go
Painted my silence in indigo
The light bent wrong when I let it in
No shape to hold, no place to begin

I bloom in the dark, where color won’t go
Painted my silence in indigo
Hands like riddles, mind like mist
Felt you leave but couldn’t resist

If this is grace, it’s missing limbs
Still drowning in a house that swims
Teeth on the edge of a secret word
Swallowed the echo, never heard

I bloom in the dark, where color won’t go
Painted my silence in indigo
Hands like riddles, mind like mist
Felt you leave but couldn’t resist

Tried to rise, but I woke in the same skin
Always cracked like porcelain

Rust on the rail, I’m the train with no brakes
Tunnels bloom open like mouths full of stakes
Every mile’s a memory folding in smoke
The sun’s a dying bulb in a ceiling that broke

Photographs flood like a bloodied tide
Ink runs backward and the years collide
I'm chasing my shadow through spiral stairs
The faster I run, the less I’m there

Rushing through the glass of time,
Like a bird through a closed sky
The world melts off my frame,
But I’m still screaming out a name
That’s eroding in the wind,
Like a candle made of sin
I was whole, I was crushing
Now I’m just here rushing

Now I’m just rushing
I was whole, I was crushing
Like a candle made of sin
That’s eroding in the wind,
But I’m still screaming out a name
The world meltin off my frame,
Like a bird through a closed sky—blind
Rushing through the glass of time,

Every breath is a countdown sigh
Every road sign's a lullaby
Told me “stay” but my feet dissolve
In a dream I can't resolve

My heartbeat’s a metronome for ghosts
They waltz on wires I miss the most

Streetlights blink like tired eyes
Every path feels improvised
I speak in riddles to the rain
It nods, but never explains

Some days I’m weightless, some I sink
Can’t tell the difference, I barely blink
Every echo sounds like “wait”
But I never was that great at fate

Can’t feel my face, can’t trace my name
Echo in a hallway sayin' it the same
Stare at the ceiling like it’s giving me signs
But it’s just cracked paint and invisible lines

Scrolling through ghosts in the glow of the screen
Heart’s off beat, caught in a looped routine
Voicemails from me that I never send
Typing out truths I won’t defend

Yeah I float —
Eyes low, can’t tell where I go
Drip slow like a leak in my soul
Weightless pain in a velvet hole
Yeah I float — Yeah I float

I wake up in a blur again
Head full of clouds and half-past ten
No map, no sign, just drifting lines
Am I lost or am I fine?

Shoelaces untied in the street
Guess I never learned to land on my feet...

Yeah I float —
Eyes low, can’t tell where I go
Drip slow like a leak in my soul
Weightless pain in a velvet hole
Yeah I float — Yeah I float

I keep it close like a shadow of oak and steel.
No one know how quiet fear can feel.
By the door it waits, like a ghost in the frame,
No pride, no power, no hunger for fame.

Just a whisper of comfort, a line in the sand —
When the world turns feral, I don’t reach for a hand.

One swing, no chat,
No threats, no sweat, just boom and that is that.
When shadows fall and lines blur apart,
When the world turns savage, I just play my part.

One swing, no chat,
No threats, no sweat, just a boom and that's that.
Not a soldier’s sword, not a hero’s hand,
Just a line I will draw in the dust and the sand.
Baseball bat — one swing, no chat,
No threats, no sweat, just boom and that’s that.

I've got a baseball bat
No threats, no sweat, just boom and that’s that.
When shadows fall and lines blur apart,
When the world turns savage, I just play my part.

I've got a baseball bat
One swing, no chat,
No threats, no sweat, just boom and that is that.
When shadows fall and lines blur apart,
When the world turns savage, I just play my part.

Dust on the mirror, cracks in the glass,
I see the future but cling to the past.
Every step forward feels like déjà vu,
Living my life in a first-person view.

The sun’s still rising, but shadows remain,
Echoes of choices I can't explain.
No one beside me, just ghosts in pursuit,
Lost in depths of a first-person view.

The sun keeps rising like it’s owed to the sky,
But I stand here watching the day pass by.
Glass-faced moments slip through my hands,
The closer I get, the less I understand.

Every step forward feels like déjà vu,
Living my life in a first-person view.

The sun keeps rising like it’s owed to the sky,
But I stand here watching the day pass by.
Glass-faced moments slip through my hands,
The closer I get, the less I understand.

I’m stuck in the glare of a world I can't touch,
Every choice I make just doubles as dust.
No rewind, no reason, no shadowed excuse —
Just me and the silence of a first-person view.

The sky turns black, the air feels tight,
Thunder rolls, breaking the night.
The streets are cracked, the walls give way,
Everything I built starts to decay.

But maybe the city was built to fall,
A phoenix ashes rising tail
The storm over the city’s a battle within,
A chance to rebuild, to start again.

The sky turns black, the air feels tight,
Thunder rolls, breaking the night.
The streets are cracked, the walls give way,
Everything I built starts to decay.

But maybe the city was built to fall,
A phoenix ashes rising tail
The storm over the city’s a battle within,
A chance to rebuild, to start again.

I thought I was strong, but the walls are thin,
The storm outside reflects the storm within.
Let it all break, let it all fall,
Maybe this ruin will save me after all.

[Verse]
I step into summit
The diplomats don't know me here
I stare around at faces
Orderly they mask their fear

Whispers echo in the halls
Where ambition builds its walls
Through the corridors of power
Truth is lost in every hour

Falling down, then rising strong
In their silence, I belong
Faces fade, but I still hunt
In their ranks, I'll bear the brunt

[Chorus]
Slipping down then going high
No one notices I touched the sky
All around me faces lie
In their ranks I must defy

[Verse]
Across the planet keeping order
We keep the peace over the border
Did you even watch the briefing
All along they weren't leading

Rising up from silent corners
Voices loud, no more mourners
In the chaos, find my way
Defying night, embracing day

[Chorus]
Slipping down then going high
No one notices I touched the sky
All around me faces lie
In their ranks I must defy

I took loops from a random jam I did about a year ago and threw some metal shit on it. Good times.

As promised, I took the raw riffs from last week and did something with them. Really just the best riff from that session and turned that into a new idea.

Tired today. I wouldn't call this a song, its more of a collection of riffs without any transitions. I do like some of the riffs and you'll probably hear them in an actual song at some point in one of these compos. But for now, this is what we got.

Your love’s a horror, baby, like a hand from the grave
Reaching for my heart, pulling me into the cave

Lift me up, take me high
Through the dark we terrify

You rise from the ashes, more alive than before
But I’ll chase this madness; and it’s you I adore

Lift me up, take me high
Through the dark we terrify
Your heart’s a cutting like a knife
Oh, look what you’ve brought to life
Lift me up, take me high

Guarding the factory day and night
Keep away boredom, but ready to fight
Single eye, single mind
There are always intruders to find

Sky's on fire, we know why

Could've been avoided but no one tried

Disaster struck and ends the status quo

You only cared about your portfolio

Steel beams over shattered earth

One nation had to be the first

To fire rockets that burned so hot

So powerful they could not be fought

A reflex of retaliation

Destruction of a nation

IF

you survive you'll wish you hadn't 

If you think this is too dark

go ahead and make your mark

Bring the message to the masses

Unity before the clashes

Some small men do have the temper

And those who follow never would learn

That the means don't justify the end

End of all not worth it my friend

 

Being still in endless sky
Unknown how hard I  tried
Being vicious is unnatural
Requiring me to be in control

Control lost is nothing new
Another place we took it to
Where the chaos could talk for us
Unaware of silent chorus

Be awake in endless sea
Chain reaction reverie
Loyalty but for a fee
Pay the price and bend the knee

Battles we could never win
Never finding strength within
Revenger will twist the knife
Falling to escape this life

Being sly to cross the gap
Always doubt the mental map
Heat will only trap
Holding us away

Being quick in desert sand
Traveling across the land

Being sly to cross the gap
Always doubt the mental map
Heat will only trap the fold
Holding us away

Battles we could never win
Never finding strength within
Revenger will twist the knife
Falling to escape this life

Being still in endless sky
Unknown how hard I  tried
Being vicious is unnatural
Requiring to be in control

Shattered on the floor
You wanted it much more
Than you knew you did
Hurts you to the core

Lost it all again
And you just can't win
They'll tell you do not try
To get to the top

Dangerous are those
Who don't know what they want
When found they froze
and the dead will haunt

Like the pins falling over
Lucky as a three-leaf clover
you're the one that drove her
out and to another lover

Dangerous are those
Who don't know what they want
When found they froze
and the dead will haunt

Don't you like your drink with your orange peel
Seems so interesting but its not real
The cadence of the walk and the subject of the talk
Deserving of nothing more than to be mocked

Perfectly groomed and perfectly hollow
Gin up support and they always will follow
Dont't blame the rubes for being this way
Can't blame the dog when it bites you they say

Traveling up to the top
Longer way to fall if caught
Its a game to you, a thrill
Spiking drinks and handing pills

Perfectly groomed and perfectly hollow
Gin up support and they always will follow
Dont't blame the rubes for being this way
Can't blame the dog when it bites you they say

The sawdust is the bi-product
You've arrived here despite your luck
Creating is what you do
I'm not sure what you knew

Barreling toward that frustration
Breaking all my concentration
Born of the mental state
That you are what you create

Glimpse of viral simple life 
Contradiction and the strife
Being online is a strain
Eat it up like Novocain

Chasing dreams that were not to be
Consuming me, totality
Destroying you entirely
You can't say your life is free

You've got your angle on things

Not aware of the baggage it brings

You're Trying to stand apart

I won't give you my heart

Callousness might be a virtue

Casting doubt on what they knew

You had the best intentions

It got too dark to mention

Carefully I know that I have to watch my flank

Otherwise the tower falls when they pull rank

Telling everyone else they should know better

In your own brother's blood you had him write the letter

This is my manifesto
and I create what I do
You can't control the truth
But I'll search for it like a sleuth

Do you like the things you have?
Are you free to get your bag?
Transcend what you knew
You can have if you wanted to

But then when you really tried
You found out they lied
Telling only feeds the pride
Influence is not a free ride

This is your manifesto
Turns out I didn't realize
The words coming out of my mouth
Were from someone I despise

Do you like the things you have?
Are you free to get your bag?
Transcend what you knew
You can have if you wanted to

We're walking the line side by side
Mediation's something they never tried

We're walking the line side by side
Mediation's something they never tried

Basing all of your facts on only half of the scene
Where you came from doesn't determine the dream

Overwhelming power, we give it to the crowd
Darker by the hour, dreadfully so proud

Take back the power back

Don't know who to trust
Sirens bring the hush
Discression's a must
Discression's is a must

Distorted figures all around
Fading its too quick to count
Like a sermon on the mound

Hallowed is the ground that we all walked across
They're all lashing out at the ones who so impure

[Verse]
In the shadow sky so dark
A bird with a broken heart
Sings a tune so torn apart
Whispered secrets in the park

[Chorus]
In a realm of night
Where shadows play
I hear the song
Of birds at bay
Their cries, they weave
A tale so deep

[Verse]
Lift me up, the bird's song's fading
Through the noise, my heart's still aching
Lift me up, the bird's song's fading
Lift me up, my heart's still aching

[Bridge]
Shades of gray inside of me
Oh this heart just won't be free
Dissonant the melody
Find the truth in apathy

[Chorus]
In a realm of night
Where shadows play
I hear the song
Of birds at bay
Their cries, they weave
A tale so deep

[Outro]
Hear the bird's song in the night
Echoes fading out of sight
Memories take to the flight
All the wrongs won't make it right

Files fade to gray

Memories slip away

Bit by bit they fray

Photos full of cheer

Now they disappear

Gone year after year

I say save your dreams today

Don't let them decay, don't let them decay

Bit by bit they bust

Change becomes a must

Photos full of cheer

Now they disappear

Gone year after year

I say save your dreams today

Don't let them decay, don't let them decay

you're more like fire than you know, down and down we go,
onto the next thing it always seems to be
taking us all over and in between,
farthest shadows cast at night, do we even know what's right?
Fire fire on the wall, ice will bring it down on us all,
don't be sweet and tell me cold, am I here being too bold? 
When we fight and when we flame, can I always ask your name?
When will it be the greatest time to feel, will we always be here making a scene,
 in the fire and in the ice, trapped like we're in the wall like mice,
but is it even right, the bite of the storm and the ice

Drowning in the noise
I feel the hum
Controlled by masses
Be so numb

Like A puppet on the strings
A lifeless stage
you're Craving authenticity
you fight to engage

A Wink, a blink of the machine
A subliminal scene, what does it mean
Manipulated, a twisted flame
We're under fire in a burning game

Slipping and falling
Struggling to see
Reality abandoned
Where am I free?
Am I free?

A Wink, a blink of the machine
A subliminal scene, what does it mean
Manipulated, a twisted flame
We're under fire in a burning game

Fingers trace the morning light
Fleeting moments, captured sight
distant Days and vacant nights
Open mouths where whispers fight

Bodies made of dust and stars
Nothing ever seemed so far

Heartbeats sound over the bay
Life's a maze one fleeting day

Mystery in every breath
Balancing on edge of death
Physical and da spirit mesh
Life in moments flesh to flesh

Bodies made of dust and stars
Nothing ever seemed so far

Fingers trace the morning light
Fleeting moments, captured sight
distant Days and vacant nights
Open mouths where whispers fight

Heartbeats sound over the bay
Life's a maze one fleeting day
Sunrise angers twilight's face
You should vanish, give me space

Mirrors shattered, reflections skewed
A maze of truths, a twisted view
Worlds colliding, realities clash
Lost in the echoes, a fractured flash

Multiple choices, divergent paths
A tapestry woven, scattered aftermath
Questioning existence, a mind's domain
Searching for answers, in the endless rain

Parallel timelines, overlapping space
A quantum leap, a mind's own race
Reality bending, like a twisted art
Lost in the chaos, a broken heart

Multiple choices, divergent paths
A tapestry woven, with scattered aftermaths
Questioning existence, a mind's domain
Searching for answers, in the endless rain

Can we reconcile, these fractured spheres
Or are we forever trapped, in doubt and fears
A cosmic puzzle, with missing pieces
Seeking unity, in these fractured deceits

Feel the years slipping fast
Counting moments that won't last
Candles flicker on my cake
One more breath I got to take

Eyes are fading shadows close
Footsteps echo where they froze

Time it never stops to wait
Counting down to meet my fate
Every heartbeat echoes clear
Living life despite the fear

Dreams of parties colored bright
Dancing under city lights
Waking up it fades away
Empty room on my birthday

Just Want to be with you

Blowing out the flame
Not the same old game
Feeling kinda tame
Life just has no frame

Bad Birthday
Bad Birthday

Time it never stops to wait
Counting down to meet my fate
Every heartbeat echoes clear
Living life despite the fear

Broken dreams on this road
Carry on heavy load
Heart so tired veins slowed
But the light never showed

Broken dreams on this road
Carry on heavy load
Heart so tired veins slowed
But the light never showed

Fallen angel where’s my halo
Thoughts are tangled in sorrow flow
Searching skies high and low
Just a trace in moonlight's glow

Flying high then fallen low
Lost my wings just to let go
Into night moon's soft glow
Halo gone shadows grow

Can I rise from this mess
Find my wings escape this stress
Let the light heal caress
Be the angel to confess
Now I see a spark bright
Fading black turning white

Fallen angel where’s my halo
Thoughts are tangled in sorrow flow
Searching skies high and low
Just a trace in moonlight's glow

Flying high then fallen low
Lost my wings just to let go
Into night moon's soft glow
Halo gone shadows grow

vocals are kinda a vibe and many parts are improvised and i'm too tired to transcribe them tonight so here's just the chorus -

Once so proud and, now it leans so still,
Nature’s touch has crushed its will,
Roots deep in shadowed past,
Each moment, too sweet to last

Oh In the glow of the screenlight
Faces trapped in tiny frames
Echo voices through the silence
We're all here but not the same

Questions hanging in the air
Answers lost within the void
Connection fails to hold us close
Its the emptiness we can't avoid

Boh
And the questions with no replies

Hold on to the ether dream
In this fragile cyber stream
I see you afar
You are my fading star

Headphones cut the noise
But still a hollow voice
You're frail and shy
Lay still in endless sky

Boh
And the questions with no replies

Hold on to the ether dream
In this fragile cyber stream
I see you afar
You are my fading star

Headphones cut the noise
But still a hollow voice
You're frail and shy
Lay still in endless sky

(Verse 1)
 Dust devils dance on the cracked asphalt, stars like pinpricks in the dome Main Street stretches, silent vigil, a single flickering streetlight's glow
The hollowness aches in my chest, a constant echo in the night
Staring at these weathered houses, no welcome light to guide me right

(Chorus)
There's  no one back home, no familiar face
Just empty echoes in this forgotten place
These fields whisper promises of simpler days
But leave me yearning for a different maze

(Verse 2)
Fireflies flicker like dying embers, casting shadows soft and frail
Crickets sing a lullaby of longing, a story whispered on the pale
The hollowness aches in my chest, a constant echo in the night
Staring at these weathered houses, no welcome light to guide me right

(Chorus)
There's  no one back home, no familiar face
Just empty echoes in this forgotten place
These fields whisper promises of simpler days
But leave me yearning for a different maze

(Outro)
There's no one back home
Not one soul
There's no one back home to tell you...

A cactus blooms, a defiant spark, in the desert of wasted time
A silent plea, a fading mark, a reminder in its prime

Yesterday's a phantom, lost in the haze of the blue screen's glow
Where did the moments vanish? Does time even seem to flow?

Static's hold on time unknown
Burnt out soul forever shown
Chasing ghosts, forever fall
Lost in echoes, no time's call

Static's hold on time unknown
Burnt out soul forever shown
Chasing ghosts, forever fall
Lost in echoes, no time's call

A tremor runs through the hollow earth
A premonition of a world with no rebirth
Fractured cities, empires turned to ash
This world's a ticking clock, counting down its final crash, its final crash

Fractured signals pierce the static mind
A constant feedback loop, we leave reality behind

I am the messenger
I am the messenger

Tangled in the wires, a truth we cannot untwine
A world on autopilot, sleepwalking through its decline

Static whispers in the dead of night
A voice that crawls from the fringes of light
Carrying burdens, a soul etched with scars
The weight of the world on these calloused stars

Fractured signals pierce the static mind
A constant feedback loop, we leave reality behind
Tangled in the wires, a truth we cannot untwine
A world on autopilot, sleepwalking through its decline

Danger lurks around every corner
Unseen forces under every stone
We’re so small compared to what lives here
Though fear may linger, the flame burns on and on and on 2


Unseen treasures, in this hidden room
Secrets echo in the endless gloom
Pressure builds, a suffocating tomb
We're small in this passage, but knowledge fuels our doom.

Downward we spiral, where shadows reside
A crushing weight, with nowhere to hide
Our vessel a beacon, a light we confide
Pushing onward, with mysteries to be untied.

Unseen treasures, in this hidden room
Secrets echo in the endless gloom
Pressure builds, a suffocating tomb
We're small in this passage, but knowledge fuels our doom.

Barefoot on the shattered skulls, a crown of twisted steel

Carving a path where suffering is real

Mortar laced with bone dust, I hunger for their plight

This city's got me barefoot in putrid night

Ripped from the mountain, a jagged embrace
Granite and slate, a primal disgrace
Rough and raw, a monument to time
But the sculptor's touch, a violence sublime

Shedding its edges, the fury unleashed
A gemstone reborn, a power released

Once a fortress, now smooth and refined

Sand and stone, a relentless attack
Sand and stone, a relentless attack
Sand and stone, a relentless attack

I don't really make TOO many dnb tracks but been feeling a little uninspired lately so I wanted to switch it up. I dont know what it is, but somehow I always manage to come up with something for a compo (this does not always happen when I sit down to make music).

Basically I wanted some kind of eerie loop to start with and then kind of make dnb on top of that so I grabbed Heavyocity Symphonic Destruction Loop Designer and found a few eerie orchestral loops in there, then I used my Launchpad in note mode (phrygian scale) to improvise some bass lines over that. I already had an idea in my head of what I wanted the drums to be like so I just quickly programmed those. I had an instrument rack set up with a ton of different bass sounds, mapped so that different velocities would trigger different bass samples, so I used that to create the drop bass by just varying the velocity to change the sample and messing with a few simple parameters. I basically just created 2 variations of the drop bass line. Then I just kind of turned on and off the other layers to create the sense of progression in the drop. Lastly I added a few fills, an amen break, and that was about it.

A perfect image, Concealing flaws, with colors bright, hiding behind a mask, is that too much to ask?

But beneath the facade, who do we see?
A reflection of truth, or who we want to be?

A facade or what we want to see
A reflection or what we want to be


Makeup on, the world's a stage,
A performance, a never-ending rage.
Covering scars, But does it hide the real you?

Underneath, are we truly known
Or are we lost in the mask we've grown
So let's embrace our flaws and our scars
for they make up a part of who we are

Concealing flaws, with colors bright,
But underneath, is it all just a plight?
A perfect image, Concealing flaws, with colors bright, behind the mask, is that too much to ask?

Makeup on, the world's a stage,
A performance, a never-ending rage.
Covering scars, But does it hide the real you?

Underneath, are we truly known
Or are we lost in the mask we've grown
So let's embrace our flaws and our scars
for they make up a part of who we are

Sorry about the less than stellar quality but my interface was acting up about 15 minutes into the compo and I did not have time to troubleshoot it plus write an entire track :D

Whoops I uploaded a bad bounce.. can I have a do-over? for no apparent reason the drop bass and lead are tuned way down, argh.. This is probably what I get for assigning the tuning to a global macro.
fixed bounce here: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/5slbpv5zhyez5pce6773e/Polaroid-s-Grain.mp3?rlkey=iz971upyw0hizqxxnxhjcjemt&dl=011

crack of lightening a thunderous sound
feeling the fire underground
raging currents flow though my veins
unleashing a power that can't be tamed

currents running deep setting me on fire
every note hitting hard taking me higher
in this electric pulse I'm alive and free
lost in the rhythm is my XTC

Everything was played in live, and it was arranged live as well. Using my 'octatrack scenes' bitwig template/controller mapping/puredata patch. I will have to do a video on this at some point, it is very cool. I don't think I've ever recorded an arrangement live and was not compelled to edit it after. The melody strikes me as familiar but I can't place it. No sooner did I type that, I realized it reminds me of Stitches by Orgy. Do you agree?

In the twisted alleys of our minds,
Monsters of our own design.
In the mirror, we see the truth,
The monster within, so uncouth.

So let the monsters dance in the night,
In the darkness, we find our light.
For in the depths of our despair, we must,
Embrace the darkness, become the monster dust.

Improvised in Bitwig with the grid modular system! So there's less structure than my usual stuff! hope you like it :P

tried something different with the producer tag, put it toward the beginning. most of y'all will miss it :D

In these clothes unchanged for days,
I wander through the ghostly haze.
A pale reflection in the window's light,
Haunted halls, a lonely night.

The Sun crumbles back, shadows cast,
Burning dreams, a painful contrast.

In the web of lies, your gaze entwined,
Eyelashes whisper, a twisted find.
A blink, a betrayal, a dagger's sheath,
In your lashes, a venomous wreath.

In the golden hour, where shadows clash,
Your eyelashes, a gilded betrayal's flash.
A blink, a deceit, a treacherous play,
In your lashes, love turns astray.

Golden lashes, a deceitful grace,
In your eyes, a traitor's embrace.
Blink by blink, a love undone,
In this moment, betrayal won.

The Sun crumbles back, shadows cast,
Burning dreams, a painful contrast.

and I, I blink my eyes, my vision blurs
In this moment, you won me over

Lyrics:

Verse:
Panic attacks at the break of day,
Burying the dead without a say.
A different version of life, universe laid,
Parallel realms, where paths are swayed.

Meet me where the lines blur tonight,
4 a.m., can't sleep, chasing the light.
You were my defense, through thick and thin,
But now the we're gonna let the staring contest begin.

Chorus:
How did we let it crumble, to dust?
Love slipping away turned into rust.
Should've been feeling, now we are numb
Floor falling out and now we are done

side note: Weird buzzing in this project in the intro, spent way too long trying to figure out what the cause was, did not find it. If you notice, its not in the outro so its weird. I'll find it eventually, if I go back to this song anyway.

A beating heart.
Echoes resonate.
Shadows cast upon the walls of fate, a premonition/open gate.

In the crimson reverie of a prophetic sight,
A vision unfolds, painted in the night.

In the palette of dreams, where futures bleed,
Crimson reverie, prophecies heed.
In the space between heartbeats, gravity,
In the weaver's hands, destiny.

A serenade of sight in silent air,
A melody of foresight, beyond compare,
A serenade of sight in silent air,
A melody of foresight, beyond compare,

Through the veiled mist of what's to be,
A glimpse ahead, an unseen sea,
Destiny unfolds in a cosmic rhyme,
In the realm of precognition, transcending time.

A serenade of sight in silent air,
A melody of foresight, beyond compare,
In the silence of the midnight air,
Visions dance, beyond compare,
A tapestry of fate, woven.
Whispers of all the chance you take

These shattered dreams are haunting me
In the ruins of my mind, you're all I see
A friendship once so strong, now torn apart
I'm wandering through the wreckage of a broken heart

In the ruins of our dreams, I'll rise again
From the fragments of our past, we'll find the strength
To mend the bonds that time has torn apart
Rebuild the world we've lost, from these shattered dreams

In the ruins of our dreams, I'll rise again
From the fragments of our past, we'll find the strength
To mend the bonds that time has torn apart
Rebuild the world we've lost, where do we start?

Let's Go

We're hostages of circumstance, trapped in this despair,
Invisible chains, we wear the weight we cannot bear,
In the heart of this crisis, we'll hold on tight,

In this hostage situation, through the darkest night.
In the heart of this crisis, we'll hold on tight,

We're hostages of circumstance, trapped in this despair,
Invisible chains, we bear the weight we cannot bear,

(this has been a nukage production)

The Silent heroes walk among us all day,
Unnoticed by the world, they find their way,
They'll lend a helping hand, without demand,

Whispers of destiny, lead them on the way,
Unknowing sacrifice, they'll face the fray,

These inner demons, they won't let me be,
But I'll fight the darkness, set my spirit free,
In the shadows of my mind, I'll find my way,
Through the darkest night, I'll see light of day.

Silent heroes, they'll light the dark,
Unseen sacrifice, leave their mark,
In the name of kindness, they'll play their part,
Silent heroes, with generous heart.

They'll carry a burden, not of their own,
Innocence lost, a seed is sown.

These inner demons, they won't let me be,
But I'll fight the darkness, set my spirit free,
In the shadows of my mind, I'll find my way,
Through the darkest night, I'll see light of day.

Innocence in their eyes, they play the game,
Unaware of the world's cruel aim,
They'll carry a burden, not of their own,
Innocence lost

In the realm of steel and sky, a fearless soul takes flight.

With valor, they will navigate the unknown,
Unveiling dreams in skies they'll call their own,
With valor, they will navigate the unknown,
Unveiling dreams in skies they'll call their own,

I haven't sung in about a month until this week, but im back now, feels good.
I turned the master down thinking it was probably wayy too loud but apparently i fuckeed that up and now its very quiet, so make sure to turn up your volume i guess


Lyrics:

I looked within, found a world to explore,
An inner revolution, knocking on my door.
The power's inside me, it's time to take control,

The mirror ends up showing a face that I hardly recognize,
Selfishness to selfless, I can look me in the eyes
Don't Go

Bridges burned to ashes, in a moment's thoughtless flame,
But I've learned the art of healing, and I'll never be the same.

Echoes of mistakes, haunting dreams
Tearing walls, it seems
Every step takes me Closer to the day

The mirror ends up showing a face that I hardly recognize,
Selfishness to selfless, I can look me in the eyes
Don't Go
Don't Go
Don't Go

Echoes of mistakes, haunting dreams
Tearing walls, it seems
Every step takes me Closer to the day

The mirror ends up showing a face that I hardly recognize,
Selfishness to selfless, I can look me in the eyes
The mirror ends up showing a face that I hardly recognize,
Selfishness to selfless, I can look me in the eyes
Don't Go
Don't Go
Don't Go

Sampled a tune I co-produced for the band Relic Hearts and made a thing

Blame Ozone AI if its too loud and clipped- i have ear fatigue and i cant tell that kind of thing rn

I sampled this song I just released this other day and kind of beat juggled and FX'd the crap out of it to get something different. Kind of a proof of concept for a potential beat juggling performance.

Named after a game I used to play as a kid

Ambient thing - trying to come up with an idea for my album intro or outro. This came out sounding more like an outro to me.

Purple Monkey Dishwasher

You tell a story of where I've been,
A testament to the battles I've seen,
You're etched in my soul, a mark of grace,
A reminder of the challenges I face.

As the years pass, you remain unchanged,
A symbol of the person I became,
With every scar, you grow in meaning,
A reminder that I'm always dreaming.

I'm always dreaming, always dreaming

Birthmark, you're a part of me,
As the years pass, you remain unchanged,
A symbol of the person I became,
With every scar, you grow in meaning,
A constant reminder that I am always dreaming.

mostly a session view jam, with very minor edits after live arranging it. shreddage hydra / addictive drums / eurobass 2 / archetype gojira / ample metal hellrazer + guitar rig 6 for clean guitar, damage 1 for cinematic drums,. spire for intro bass synth., ozone for mastering. also its based on a melody /progression from my 3rd and yet unleased album

I thread the needle, pull the fabric tight

Hoping the perfect fold will make everything right

I thread the needle, pull the fabric tight

Hoping the perfect fold will make everything right

But the seams unravel, exposing my fears

A fashion statement can't wipe away the tears

I thread the needle, pull the fabric tight

Hoping the perfect fold will make everything right

But the seams unravel, exposing my fears

A fashion statement can't wipe away the tears

Their tongues slither, weaving tales of deceit,
But I see through their venomous feat,
Distant memories of their twisted dance,
A warning to all, a deceptive trance.

Within the darkness, hope takes its form,
Snake eggs glisten, amidst the storm,
A reminder of the miracles unseen,
In the darkest corners, life shall convene.

Their tongues slither, weaving tales of deceit,
But I see through their venomous feat,
Distant memories of their twisted dance,
A warning to all, a deceptive trance.

The scent of lies permeates the air,
As illusions breed, we become ensnared,
But I'll carve my own name, break free from the mold,
In this world of serpents, I will stay bold.

Within the darkness, hope takes its form,
Snake eggs glisten, amidst the storm,
A reminder of the miracles unseen,
In the darkest corners, life shall convene.

I'm racing against the clock, seconds slip away
Feeling the pressure, I can't afford to delay
Hairpin turns and winding roads
Amidst the doubts, my fire still glows
Destined to conquer, not destined to fail

I yearn for something more, to break this chain
Empty and drained, but the journey's not in vain
I'll find the strength, to push through the strain
to push through the strain
to push through the strain

I'm racing against the clock
I'm racing against the clock

And I'm
Running
out of
time,
the minutes slip away
But I
won't surrender,
I'll
fight
through
the gray
In
this
emptiness
Running out of time

In the depths of duality, a Gemini I roam,
Two sides of the same coin, a heart with split-tone.
A battle rages on the inside, the push and pull of our fate,
A constant contradiction, a never-ending state.

In this eternal struggle, I'll find my destined way,
Embracing contradictions, with every breath I sway.

Oh, the Sage of ages, in your wisdom I confide

Unlock the doors of perception, where truth and beauty reside

In the silence of the mind, the Sage's voice will ring

Revealing hidden treasures, as I spread my wings

Oh, Sage of the Ages Teach me how to be wise

In the tapestry of life Let me see beyond the lies

Verse 1:
Counting down the moments, as we plunge into the void
Entangled in the chaos, our existence destroyed
We're sick and tired, drowning in the dreams we've let decay
Chorus:
Now we're on a track, forgotten and astray
Sacrificing ourselves, what's it we're meant to pay?
Now we're on a track, forgotten and astray
It's time to eject from this charade
Verse 2:
Ejector seat, propel me through the sky
Leave behind the wreckage, spread my wings and fly
Breaking free from the chains that held me down
Launch me into the air
Chorus:
Now we're on a track, forgotten and astray
Sacrificing ourselves, what's it we're meant to pay?
Now we're on a track, forgotten and astray
It's time to eject from this charade

In the darkness I wonder alone
In the storm, no shelter to call my own
Converse with the storm, dance in the rain
Where do my fears go when they face the hurricane?
A thousand lives touched by electric might
I reach for the heavens, where thunder roars
I reach for the heavens, where thunder roars
In the darkness I wonder alone
In the storm, no shelter to call my own
Embracing solitude, lightning in my veins
A sense of control, amidst thunder's reign
A thousand lives touched by electric might
A thousand lives touched by electric might
I reach for the heavens, where thunder roars
I reach for the heavens, where thunder roars

How are you?
I don't know what you want me to do
Other than find the pictures that took us to a different time

The photo album is a chronicle of pain
Every picture stained, but I won't refrain

Torn edges, a glimpse of the past
The haunting shadows will forever last
Torn edges, a glimpse of the past
The haunting shadows will forever last

In the depths of my shattered past
Lies a world that just won't fade
A worn-out photo album,
memories of the life that I've betrayed

The photo album is a chronicle of pain
Every picture stained, but I won't refrain

Torn edges, a glimpse of the past
The haunting shadows will forever last
Torn edges, a glimpse of the past
The haunting shadows will forever last

Living deep beneath the streets, in the dark and in the cold
We are the mole people, a secret world we hold
Our homes are tunnels and caves, where the sun never shines
We hide from the outside world, where hope and love resigns

Metal remix I did of a vocal I made a few weeks ago. SPAACCEE

I'm lost in this quicksand of despair
Trapped in a world that's not fair
I'm sinking fast, can't seem to break free
From this darkness that's
Always consuming me

I'm trapped in this quicksand
And I Can't seem to find solid ground
I'm trapped in this quicksand
Every step just drags me down

Every Step Drags Me Downnnnnnnnnnnnn
Every Step Drags Me Downnnnnnnnnnnnn
Every Step Drags Me Downnnnnnnnnnnnn
Every Step Drags Me Downnnnnnnnnnnnn

EV RY STEP DRAGS ME DOWN
EV RY STEP DRAGS ME DOWN
EV RY STEP DRAGS ME DOWN
EV RY STEP DRAGS ME DOWN

Every time that you are near

my starts to race I can feel the tension building

like a storm about to break

every cut every tear reminds me of the pain that I cannot assuage

when its torn like a page



I won't be beaten, I won't give in

The fabric of my soul, I'll make it spin

The tapestry of memories woven with pain

But I'll make something, something that will remain



I'll take the peices of life worn and frayed

and turn them into something that will never fade

I'm standing here, exposed and raw
My heart is beating out of my chest
I'm reaching out, searching for a sign
That you can see the hurt inside my mind

Don't underestimate the pain I feel
I need you to understand me
The darkness and the light within me

I want you to break me open
And see the secrets that I hide
I want to feel your touch

Like a Minesweeper game
Full of hidden bombs and mines
Navigate the terrain
Trying to uncover what's inside

I want you to sweep me clean
And see the secrets that I hide
I want to feel your touch
Like a bomb defused inside

I want you to break me open
And see the secrets that I hide
I want to feel your touch

Lyrics:

Can't seem to shake this feeling
Its been here all along
A heavy weight upon my chest
a never ending song

I try to push it down inside
But it's always there to find
A constant reminder of pain that's left behind

(Pain that's left behind)

I'm the last man in the earth
A lonely existence to bear
I find a silent world around me
No one is left to share
the memories of what used to be
And it haunts my every step
I search for sign of life but I only find more emptiness

And I try to push it down inside
But it's always there to find
A constant reminder of pain that's left behind

(Pain that's left behind)

Using my latest setup involving Octatrack, Bitwig and Max 8. I basically mapped a bunch of modulators in Bitwig in a similar fashion to scenes in Octatrack, and I am using the scene controls in Octatrack to control Bitwig via a patch I created in Max 8. Fun stuff. Basically thats what gives it the kind of live / kind of programmed kind of sound I guess? I'm planning on improving this system to where I can hopefully do a whole live set with it, maybe possibly with a little live looping over top. One can dream.

So I've had an Octatrack since 2012, an APC40 since 2010 and I rarely use them. Well tonight I used them for a hybrid hardware/sofware jam. So its not my usual fare but it was pretty fun. Here's how it works:

Octatrack for midi sequencing
APC40 faders mapped to macros in Bitwig
All sounds are built-in bitwig instruments/effects
Only 3 tracks - Drums, Bass, Lead

Basically I wanted to simulate the scenes in Octatrack, but do it in a way that could have the perfect recall of a DAW, so I used the macros in bitwig to modulate various parameters across all 3 tracks. Each fader represents a 'scene' in the elektron sense of it.

It was a totally different workflow than anything I've ever done, and since it was all midi, everything is perfectly recorded unlike a usual hardware jam where it's all audio. The downside is that I spent most of the time mapping the modulators in Bitwig and much less time actually using the Octatrack.

You haunt me like a ghost, I can't shake you off
Your voice echoes in my mind, my heart feels so lost
I see you in every shadow, every locker room we shared
I'm trying to move on, but you're holding me back, I'm scared

Just a memory, fading out
Those times in the locker room

Can you feel me calling out?
In the echoes of your heart
Just a memory, fading out
But I can't seem (to restart)

Can you feel me calling out?
In the echoes of your heart
Just a memory, fading out
But I can't seem (to restart)

Can you feel me calling out?
Can you feel me calling out?
Can you feel me calling out?
Can you feel me calling out?

[apologies for Another super quiet bounce from me since I switched DAW's and dont know wtf i am doing in bitwig yet and idk how to re-upload a fixed version]

Verse 1:

The neon lights are burning bright

But no one's here to see them shine

The open sign is flickering

But the store's closed for the last time

Chorus:

It's the end of an era

The end of a dream

The open sign is fading

But the memories still gleam

The graveyard is a lonely place.

The graveyard is a lonely place.

How many hearts have been broken?

How many dreams have died?

Note: 3rd time I accidentally chopped off the last few seconds of my track... THIS IS A NUKAGE PRODUCTION DESPITE NOT HAVING A PRODUCER TAG KTHX

Lyrics:

It's been a million years since we last saw the sun

We're still standing here

We're the last ones left



I can't say I know what you are but you're important

So big and imposing, but you are still dormant



and I know that you stand

As a testament to hope and resilience



Remind us all that we can overcome

Anything at all

Remind us all that we cannot be stopped

And we stand tall



It's been a million years since we last saw the sun

We're still standing here

We're the last ones left

I can't say I know what you are but you're important

So big and imposing, but you are... A MONOLITH!!!!



Remind us all that we can overcome

Anything at all

Remind us all that we cannot be stopped

And we stand tall

Vocal borrowed from Without Me by Dayseeker
Second compo I bounced incorrectly in the past few weeks, proof that I do not listen to the arrangements until I bounce and upload them. there's a weird drum track in there (before first drop) that should been muted

Been lookin for you in every single place
Been lookin for you in every single face
But you're like a needle
That I can't find

But you're like a needle
That I can't find

I looked high and low
But you're not there

Maybe I'll go home
And say its not fair

That now I'm lost
I'm never gonna be found
Now I'm lost...

But you're like a needle
That I can't find
But you're like a needle
That I can't find

This has been a NUKAGE production.

Ending cut off including my producer tag :( I'm sure any snarky a-holes in the chat will point out its absence :D

I can't keep my eyes open
I can't keep my mind from racing

I just want to drift away
And dream of better days

And I just wanna drift away
Not think of all the fuckin nights
and all the fuckin fights

And I just wanna drift away
The racing of my fuckin mind
All the fuckin time

When I'm falling asleep with you
I only fall asleep with you
And dream of better days
When I'm lying next to you
?????????

Worries of my day
Wanna drift away
Worries of my life
Wanna grab a knife

Can't keep my eyes open
Can't kee my mind from racing

My mind is spinning and I'm feeling tired
I just want to dream of better days

As the plane starts to descend

The panic sets in

The screams the echo the cabin

As the plane starts going down

I can feel it all around me

The fear is in the air

I'm trapped in this nightmare

Falling through the air

People dying all around me

There's blood everywhere

And I all I can do is pray because

Life isn't fair

And comes to a short end



I can feel it coming

The pressure is mounting

I know that it's time To let go



no easy answer

we're an enigma

I'm left here wondering

Where to go



Maybe one day we'll understand

Maybe one day we'll see the light

maybe we'll create solutions to our problems



as the ground gives way

I'm falling I'm falling

the world comes tumbling down

I'm falling I'm falling

You're in a place

that i can't comprehend

Can't see your face 

So far away, that I can't understand

Two beings lost

We were together yet alone

lost, so far away

It chilled us to the bone

can't keep me controlled

im am free

Won't do what I'm told

I live my life

Don't hold back, no rules

Just let me go

I'm can do what I want to  do

You can have the world, and you can have the sea

But I don't want them, just leave me be

I can see the people through the glass
And everything you've built is coming detached
But it's growing and it growing
they're not going away

It's like looking through a cracked mirror
on judgement day

We drive, We drive, The windshield is breaking apart
we lose control and we're going off the cliff tonight

I can't believe 

How much that we've 

Crossed paths, and I --

I realize you are the key to life   

You help me make sense of it all

I used to think that you were a tool  

you have my secrets and they wont escape

You help me make sense of it all

I won't forget you when you fall

You are the key

To my success

But you're filled 

With my regrets

But I always come back

You're always so exact

Can't take the heat
Everyone's Gonna melt away
All I can do is lay
In the summer heat

I try to stay cool
And make it through
as the sun beats down
on me

the the the sunlight
the the the sunlight
the the the sunlight

All I can feel
all the dirty sweat rushing down my brow
my skin is burning red now

I try to stay cool
And make it through
as the sun beats down
on me