TO CLARIFY, MY MOTHER IS STILL ALIVE. THIS IS A MERELY FICTIONAL SCENARIO ABOUT A BIRTHDAY WITHOUT SOMEONE YOU LOVE.

I don't know, but i feel like the people in this photo were depressed not because nobody showed up, but because someone important is not there. I didn't want to make a generic sadness piece, but a piece that signifies someone you lost. So i ramped up as much emotion as i could possibly do, in order to make it a hard hitting piece. The track is simple, and very slow at a whooping 40bpm, with bulk of the interest coming from piano chords, a simple detuned synth melody, and an array of synth strings and bell sounds. It's a free flowing piece, with a lot of more subtle chord changes, but either way it's a hard hitting one, almost too hard lol. I under estimated how harsh that lead synth is. Oh well, i had to think on my feet, and this was the results. Not bad at all, i like it. I hope you enjoy this!

(so begins bitwig baugust)

so far no one's reached out
that's what i get for disconnecting
deleted my facebook now i'm getting
a party of one
i think i'm done with birthdays
a party for one
i'm gonna do things my way

i think i'm better
now i'm without Meta
party for one
why should you know my birthday?

Feel the years slipping fast
Counting moments that won't last
Candles flicker on my cake
One more breath I got to take

Eyes are fading shadows close
Footsteps echo where they froze

Time it never stops to wait
Counting down to meet my fate
Every heartbeat echoes clear
Living life despite the fear

Dreams of parties colored bright
Dancing under city lights
Waking up it fades away
Empty room on my birthday

Just Want to be with you

Blowing out the flame
Not the same old game
Feeling kinda tame
Life just has no frame

Bad Birthday
Bad Birthday

Time it never stops to wait
Counting down to meet my fate
Every heartbeat echoes clear
Living life despite the fear

Congratulations you won and you're older and nobody found out! Oh......

You'll dance the night away anyway

(wanted some chiptune practice)

i've had a really rough week and because of that this might be the angriest song i've ever written even if it may not sound like it.

lyrics:

im tired of being trapped with you

i'm tired of being running back to you 

won't you?

Instrumental: Meistr
Lyrics: Kazu Kiseki , KieranValor, Kawamori
Vocalist: Kawamori, Bunnipeep, KieranValor

[KAWAMORI]
The lights are bright in my eyes
I shouldn’t be so surprised
I have a drink in my hand
I guess it’s my fault this time

[BUNNIPEEP]
Could I have done something else
Maybe get way better friends
Who wouldn’t leave me behind
Who’s even driving this time?

[KAWAMORI]
Everyone is talking but not saying anything anything
What am I gonna do to get home,
im stumbling stumbling

[ KIERANVALOR ]
I wanna leave but pressure’s got me held tight
There’s still a bit of time to call off of work, right?
It’s a vibe, but nothing feels quite right
I really shoulda stayed home tonight
Social anxiety? Maybe it’s maybelline
Got enough noise to go fill up the industry
I should be fine, I mean, it’s no big deal to me
Is it in my head or are all my words stumbling
[ Repeat x1 ]

[KAWAMORI]
The lights are bright in my eyes
I shouldn’t be so surprised
I have a drink in my hand
I guess it’s my fault this time
OHHHHHHHHHH

Meh